Needy

I am a needy friend- i have issues I realize this but what i don't understand and how people can be friends with me for so long and yet they still don't understand these needs and well I guess i don't know where they come from- I am sure if a shrink happens upon this post they could offer up some reasoning and I wish I knew so just I could be sure I don't pass it along to my own children. The problem my son has already caught this " constant need for attention/praise" bug and I hate it!! Hate it more that I know it came from me and not my " whatever" attitude DH. Why when i do something do I need everyone to know why do I care? Why does facebook seem like the devil sometimes because I comment on a picture and then someone else comments ( and not at all like the witty comment i had) and the person only responds to them...." UMMMM hello...it is me over here you know the one that needs to know that you saw my comment and you love it"!!  maybe that is my friends way of blocking out my needy ways and still loving me anyway? who knows what I do know is I can;'t stand it! and phone calls just call a sister back already...two minutes is all I ask..
okay that is all- rant over

It's the Holiday Season...

Wow I do not know where this year has gone- the days just fly by and I think this really has to do with the fact that I have a huge ( HUGE) list of things that I am trying to accomplish before the new year... I have recently begun an obsession with PINTEREST!!

I made a beautiful wreath ( I will post a pic later) that I never would have thought of if I hadn't seen Pinterest and all its wonder! I am trying desperately to get all my shopping done but on such a tight budget this year it is hard to make everything balance out- I can't get over the shock of the money it costs to buy a home and not just the purchase price but the general upkeep- I guess it doesn't help that we want to change EVERYTHING!!! I mean we like the layout and the wall color in the living room and that is pretty much where the love affair ends.

I think I will have an entire post on my parents visit in the summer and the remodels ( i know leaving you in suspence over the holidays!!)

I guess ( back to the money topic) it is a good thing that my children really haven't asked for much otherwise I am sure I would be freaking out a bit more- but currently as we speak my father is upstairs ripping up the kitchen floor ( at my husbands request ) and we have our first time ever hosting a holiday party- party tomorrow night.....thanks GUYS!! who needs a kitchen floor at Christmas!! UGGG....

C-C-C-CHanges....

Okay so since my last blog A LOT has changed- the biggest thing is I have become a "Riley" and I have had another baby and I have moved, and I have changed careers and goals...wow the list could go on for days- so here it is my forum, my new outlet for my LOUD voice- sometimes living in this place can be isoloating and not having my family can be hard so to ensure that I don't lose myself I have created this place to just be me...in the life of a riley.